Wellness Warrior. Be warned...random thought post.

The last two weeks I have done a lot of thinking. What am I doing. Where am I going. I have so many things happening in my life am I on the right track?

A very little bit about me right now, I am 28, a mother of two, always on the go, learning, planning, starting, I have ideas coming out everywhere, new concepts, businesses, ideas. I have a small home business Aromaplay an all natural children's aromatherapy play dough that I make for gluten free kids, I run a small facebook page called "the intolerant toddler" that supports parents with children with intolerance's. I have plans (on hold for now) for that to grow into a community group that supports an all natural life for children. We just moved, we are considering selling a house & making a permanet change. You know, living life.....


For some reason, I'm having a mind shift. Maybe the universe is lining up in ways that I don't know, but maybe I'm seeing more and learning more from those around me. I don't know.. do you ever know what you are supposed to do with your life. I know one thing. I think too much about what I WANT to do or WANT to happen and I live my life in the "thoughts" of the future. So I am "checking in" with myself tonight. (when have you last done that)

6 months ago, a year ago, 3 years ago, I must have "lived" in my future thoughts then... so am I AT those places now? Did I ever GET to where I wanted to go? I'm not saying I haven't reached any goals or gone ahead with dreams. I have, the universe made some if not all of them come to fruition. Now that I think about it... However now that I am here I have traded in those thoughts and am now living in the future again, is that just life.? When was I going to stop to ENJOY that I got there... was I ever going to? Why not? Are we losing contact with the today, are we so FAST paced and Technology fuelled that we need to always be stimulated to feel we are "reaching" or "working" on what we want in the future. So when I'm at deaths door, where will my thoughts be then, is that when I look back and wish I had stopped for a moment and just grounded myself?

To be grounded... in the moment, present.How do we get that? What facebook page can I link to, blog can I read, online community group can I join to GET that... See what I mean?

I have realised lately, I'm the only one that can get that, and its all free, no one can give it to me, only I will know when I get it, and only I can DO it. I need to read the books and then LIVE them. I have read and learned about Buddhist teachings for years... but once I close the book I am not LIVING them and that is something that I want to do.
Its not ALL bad, i have learnt and applied a LOT of what I have learned in nutrition to the family and it is one of the things that I am proud of.. and in other ways it has begun, the bath toys being thrown out. I DID that, and I FEEL good about it.. Everyday at bath time I feel good about it. Now keep going... KEEP DOING.

So what does this mean for me. & where has this come from? I don't know, I just feel like getting it out "on paper right now" :) However

I have two family members right now fighting for their lives. From disease, not from any accident or incident. They are inspiring me... I want to know more to help them.. From what they say and what they are doing even though I am not with them I have realised that LIFE is all they care about. Not about making plans. Life right now. like RIGHT NOW,breathing in and breathing out. and then doing it again, and again. Nothing other than that is important to them. They just want to be alive. I'm alive and I thought I appreciated it.. but now I realise I don't appreciate it ENOUGH not in MY books.I KNOW a lot, I talk about it a lot.. I just dont DO enough...

I have had cancer knocking at my door and I'm only 28. It knocked, I said "no thanks, not right now" and it left and i forgot about it... HOW LUCKY AM I.. really I'm so lucky, CINIII High Grade cell changes in my cervix that had to be removed. It scared me. And it was a major reason that I started my journey into natural health and medicine then... and then I forgot about it..life got in the way..

Today, the world is so easy to just hand you anything on a plate, you don't need to know how to cook, you can pick anything you ever want off a shelf no matter what it is.., you don't actually have to make or do anything for yourself anymore so it takes an event, an illness, a mind shift to make you make life more difficult for yourself.

So are most of us living in a bubble and until that bubble bursts for you then you are awakened and you learn, and you soak in all the knowledge that applies to you and your life that you just weren't aware of, you never tapped into it and it never presented itself to you because you never thought you needed it? (law of attraction?) and then you change?

Well that is the message that I seem to be getting every where. I'm inspired by so many amazing people at the moment and they all have a story. (I will write about them in the future) A child born with a disease,, A personal diagnosis of cancer, or another terminal illness, something that popped their bubble. I didn't have cancer (just), I haven't lost a family member yet, my children are happy and healthy (well they are now) I have lived a great life (with ups and downs along the way of course) but nothing that ROCKED my world so now I'M going to pop my own bubble. I don't want something horrible to happen for me to find the RIGHT life for me. I'm going to start fighting right now, I'm going to fight the world (in a nice way of course) now as it seems everything is out to get us.. Everything that WE HUMANS have made is out to get us..... and it is getting us. Its winning, We are sicker, our kids are sicker, our houses are sicker, our food is sick, our air, water, trees, products, minds, thoughts, everything... just sitting here and working on the computer using wireless Internet is making me sick....

Lana- new occupation name, WELLNESS WARRIOR

Oh how overwhelming it can all be.
So there we go.
POP
There goes my bubble. I am now a warrior. Its up to me to make my life well, my kids life well, my husband, my mum, my dad, and everyone that is touched by me or comes in my life, I want to teach them a new way, a new thought, a new life. a better life, a well life. So I will live my life out on here, and maybe you might learn something a long the way. I wont always get it right and I might go off track sometimes but I will try, that is all I can ask of myself.

To start with my whole family, kids, husband and I will be having a heavy metal/toxicity test. This will be our new START moment, and then I will continue to learn, research, read and do what I do now so we can change what we find. I will explore everything that I come across that interests me. I will reduce the "noise" of my life to what I want to see & hear and do. I don't care if ANYONE reads these posts. I don't mind if you don't "like" my page on facebook. it really doesn't matter to me anymore. Its nice of course but its not something that I want to focus on anymore. I just want to enjoy my family, friends and other inspired people that want to live the right life for them, what ever it is.

Here we go! WELLNESS WARRIOR STEP 1. DE CLUTTER - ONLINE & IN REAL LIFE

MASSIVE facebook cut down. My page is filled with product updates, sales, liking requests, business stuff.. to be honest, no offence, I love shopping, but it not important to me anymore, in the moment when I open my facebook page I want to see my friends again, I want to share their highs and their lows, I want to see things that interest me, and that might be good for my family, new research on food as medicine, inspiring stories of life and living, inspiring people and maybe the occasional handmade loveliness that is looking for a new home, :) So the "hide" button is going to get a work out.

Then... on to Real life..


Live.Laugh,Love~ Lana